Carpometacarpal Joint

&

On the Eve of a College Graduation

Alison Hicks

Carpometacarpal Joint

The surgeon removed the problematic bone.
I considered asking for it. Possibly illegal?
Fun to think of, polished and hanging around my neck.
Oh, that’s my left trapezium, I’d say, lifting it for show.

Winter was everywhere except here,
storms rolling up the coast split north and south.
My body supplied the drama.

Do you remember what I said to you after the surgery?
I marveled at the unwrapping as she cut,
cast rolled like a burrito: cotton cushioning, gauze and plaster,
my swollen hand, bump below the index knuckle
where she’d planted a button
joined to another on the side of the thumb,
thread wired between them.

I remembered before the surgery,
when she stood at the end of the gurney,
I hadn’t recognized her, tumbling hair disguised
beneath the bouffant cap (I wore one too), until I saw the eyes,
impeccably applied mascara, penetrating, not unkind.

The nurse who brought me apple juice,
helped me wiggle into underwear and pants,
said the joint had been a mess: Her problem, not yours.

What did I say to you after the surgery?
So hard to think straight around doctors, the knowingness catches you.
Mascara-framed eyes waiting for my response.
No idea. Trick question?
Miniature me walking the tightrope in my hand.

After years of drought, snowpack in the Rockies rebounded.
It snowed big time in southern California.

On the Eve of a College Graduation

Are we going down in a burning ship
standing on deck watching?
Will I be dead before the worst?

When did the future become unbearable?
Was this the way our parents felt—
about the Bomb, nuclear winter?

*

Alone in a hotel room, awake,
rattling doorknob, twisting back and forth.
Spine pressed against the wall—
unable to move.

Then daylight seeping through blinds.

*

Young people
walking across the stage:
faith, I do, have to.


Alison Hicks was awarded the 2021 Birdy Prize from Meadowlark Press for Knowing Is a Branching Trail. Previous collections are You Who Took the Boat Out and Kiss, a chapbook Falling Dreams, and a novella Love: A Story of Images. Her work has appeared in Eclipse, Gargoyle, Permafrost, and Poet Lore. She was named a finalist for the 2021 Beullah Rose prize from Smartish Pace, and nominated for a Pushcart Prize by Green Hills Literary Lantern and Quartet Journal. She is founder of Greater Philadelphia Wordshop Studio, which offers community-based writing workshops.